The title of this post, is what ChatGPT so lovingly called it when I asked, “What flavor of autism is it when I listen to an audiobook while I also read the physical book?” Because thats spot on. Was I diagnosed with autism? Nope. I’m not doctor but there’s no thought in my mind that I don’t fall on the spectrum. I watch shows and movies with subtitles. I listen to songs while reading the lyrics. If I don’t, my mind is doing cartwheels somewhere in the ethers 🤸‍♂️ I wish I knew that as a kid! My parents called me a daydreamer and said I didn’t care, when in actuality I was dissociating.

I digress… kinda…

I described this years ago to someone where if I give my brain a new autopilot setting that’s actually productive (I.e. making lists, saving money, routines, alarms, ect) it gives me more room in my head for fun things. I have a list for each monthly expense. A list for everything I want accomplished that day. I REFUSE to shop without a list (you must be out ya damn mind if you think imma free ball it out there. WITH THIS BRAIN?! 😮‍💨)

Anyways, reading chapter 3 of atomic habits, gave me another jolt of clarity. Surprised? Kinda actually. Years ago, I was explaining to someone with heavier ADHD than myself, about creating good habits and routines and how it helps me function like a normal human. (Really doe wtf is normal?🧐)

ANYWAYS…

I couldn’t believe that’s exactly what he talked about in chapter 3. I thought it was wild. But in integrating new habits and routines, I actually have time to write everyday. I can actually think about watching a new movie. For YEARS I’ve been watching the same things on repeat because I couldn’t retain anything new. But I’ve been coming back alive. Not exactly because of this book, but it and my shit show of a past life were definitely a catalyst.

Wherever you are in life, especially if you sound like this chick 👆 maybe follow me 🤷🏻‍♀️ but if anything, just start somewhere and small. Brush your hair before and after bed. Change your socks. Make that list. Set that alarm. Small changes are the catalyst for a new life. That I promise.

Roxy😘