I just read chapter 5 of atomic habits and it feels like I wrote it about me… I do so many things in this book already, and I never had a way to articulate what I was doing.

Clarity-I love you 😌

Every morning I do a lot of shit. Like… A LOT OF SHIT. But I’ve been doing it for a while so I don’t even think about it. It’s just what I do now.

Night and Morning Routine:

*the night before: I brush my hair, put on deodorant , grab a change of clothes and socks, layout my kindle, brush, claw clip, pill pack, and AirPods for the morning and put my phone on the charger.

*When I wake up: I do my hair, feed my cat, open the curtains, take all that stuff with me, use the bathroom, brush my teeth, make coffee and breakfast, eat, take meds, read while listening to the audiobook, then blog.

Sounds super busy but I do this without thinking 

I don’t have a way for something to distract me really. Every now and then I have a thought whilst doing all that ⬆️ “BuT do We HaVe To dO x” I just hear the thought, pat it on its head, and send it on its cute way. Routines/Habit Stacking are how I’ve been able to go on a new autopilot and feel solid. To be who I am. To give my mind space to play again. That old thought is just an echo of an old comfort zone.

It’s important for me to say this. I didn’t just one day start doing alllll that 👆 in one day. That in is why people can have a “New Year’s Resolution” of running 5k a day, then it falls away a week later. Start SMALL. It started with me remembering to brush my teeth in the morning. If you’ve been reading my blogs long enough, you’d know I got divorced in 2018, didn’t have a penny to my name, and I got sober shortly after my divorce in 2019. I’ve been quietly rebuilding my life for 7 years so remembering to brush my teeth or change my shirt was a win. Don’t even get me started on remembering to shower. I’m serious. Everyone starts at zero.

I couldn’t even buy my cat food or litter, my parents did. Same for my toiletries. Remembering to feed my cat. My dad made me his coffee in the morning. I had NOTHING. I mean nothing. Not even the will to live, I’m not gonna lie to anyone. My life was in a bad way until now. I’ll take some boring autopilot any day.

Never Forget Where You Came From

If I don’t forget where I came from, I’ll always get to see how far I’ve come. That’s the real mic drop 🎤

Roxy ❤️