I’m in a very weird point in my life. My brain is having a tug-of-war over what I’ve built, echos of my past that i honestly don’t give a flying fuck about, and 3D world shit where women have no rights.

I don’t want those things in my life. Everyday feels like Groundhog Day. I’ve heard peace feels boring. A few weeks ago, I signed up for online dating. I don’t know why, honestly. I’m tired of being single, but I’m also not in the place to explain my thoughts to anyone just to be understood.

Yes I’ve matched with people. Most of them dropped out quickly because they realized I want something real, not a mattress mambo. Good riddance. I’ve got two matches currently waiting for me to respond to their generic questions that I can see right through. I hit the “Take A Break” toggle. I don’t wanna be there anymore. I think I’ve hit a point where I can’t vibe with anyone on a dating app.

Am I happy? Sure. To not identify with surface level shit. But also no. When they say its lonely at the top, now I know what that means…

Roxy 🤷🏻‍♀️